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She stands there looking in, as always, watching him as he laughs with their friends. She smiles sadly as she sees him tell the others something. She longs to be with him, to call him hers again, like she did so long agao. She shakes her head as she pushes away the complusion to walk in and tell him the truth. Every day it hurts more, knowing she loves him, yet knowing her life is leading her elsewhere. She is torn between her heart and her career. Follow your heart, everyone says, but how can she when her heart says yes, yet it seems that everytime she has, its fallen out form under her. Their eyes meet and she turns away as the tears start

She stood at the cliff's edge with the knife in her hand. The moon shown off the water, casting reflections on her face. Now with all her barriers down, the tears flowed freely, staining her face.  The night wind blew her hair into her face, but she ignored it. It didn't matter anymore. Blood seeped from the wounds on her wrists. Slowly she looked up to the sky, the stars mirroring in her tears. Once again, she had lowered her defenses, had opened her heart, and once again her heart was broken. This time it had been different, though.  It had been her first love, her first heartbreak. She stood there and screamed, every drop of pain and remor

Falling to the sea again Why does it want me so? Is my life so useless, That the waves seem To beat against my soul With their unending fury My heart is broken My faith is tattered My dreams shattered Broken promises Filling my head I cry out to Him I know He is there So why does He feel So far out of reach? I long to be in His arms To feel His love for me I cry and I scream But the walls between us Just seem so high Someone find me Someone help me I need help to see His face I need help to live

I stand outside your door With my heart in my hands I try to walk away Yet I always find myself here I try to put the pieces Back together but they fall apart It feels like I'm dying But at the same time I live Always something That makes me think of you A song we heard Or something you'd like I try to figure it out But it confuses me more It doesn't make any sense How I think of you all the time I've lost count of how many Tears I've cried And I know more will come Falling in pieces As I think of you I tried so hard to be good Yet again, I lose my heart Was it so wrong to Want to make you happy? Am I condemned to fai

Shadows of night Filling my day Pulled into darkness Again and again Chorus Why can't I see? Why can't I hear? All the things I used to know The night a balm To a tortured mind The stars a hope To see the sky Chorus Lost in the darkness Of broken promises Left in pieces Of forgotten dreams Chorus I can't see the sky And the sun burns The clouds like a mist Across my eyes Chorus Yet I see you And the shadows fade Holding my hand You guide me to light

Again the rain falls Again my heart weeps for you Lost in the darkness You guide me to light Only with you Do I see the sun Only with you Can I hear the songs Of the birds in the trees Again the rain falls Again my heart weeps for you Lost in the darkness You guide me to light Lost in the shadows You hold my hand The light shines through And I can breathe again Again the rain falls Again my heart weeps for you Lost in the darkness You guide me to light

I am three people A mix of attitudes The first is the one On the surface Somewhat studious In comfortable clothes That laughs with friends And always smiles Second is the dark me Wearing black and Draped in chains Hating the public Preferring to be alone In the solace of my music Lost inside with No light to find Sad and forgotten Betrayed and scared To love again The third is the fighter True and brave Loyal to all I love Garbed in the shades of nature Armed with a sword Preferring to fight than talk These are my three people This is my soul

Lost in the shadows Of my fallen soul So many doors But no keys to open them So many things to say But no words to use My wings are broken The feathers have burned Fallen into the darkness And I can't find my way Back into the light The night is a balm To my tortured mind The stars a hope To see the sky Maybe someday I'll find my way Out of this prison And truly smile again But for now I'll sit Here in the darkness And dream of the light

A clown with a face Of paint so thick Like a mask that Cannot be removed The tears flow freely But none can see them A happy face For all to see But a broken face underneath Torn and tattered Like a forgotten cloak Dusty and lost Soon the tears Will etch through the paint And crack the mask Then the world will see The pain in the eyes Of the clowns that we are

Life is like a leaf Our families are the trees We grow in the spring And turn green in the summer Like the good days with friends Yet when fall comes Some of us are still whole Our lives nice and intact Protected from the ravages Of the elements and the bugs Still there are many that Get trampled in the wind And chewed by the aphids They are lost in the confusion Of why life has been cruel to them These are the leaves That are filled with holes And only the memories Of a happy life People are the leaves In the world of the trees Battered or blessed By the sun and the wind Many of us fall To the ground With the others